Hello, everyone!

This week has been super exciting for me because I RECEIVED MY FIRST SHIPMENT OF BOOKS!! Of course, these are pre-release copies, meaning that Mark of the Corripian is not yet available from book stores. It is, however, available directly through my publisher or directly through me. Also, if you are interested in reviewing Mark of the Corripian, send me an email at bhparker@ymail.com and I would love to send you a copy!
Before I forget, I would  like to give a shout-out to all the wonderful people who have already purchased books from me! I had an overwhelming amount of support the FIRST day I received books, and it was so encouraging! …Though also a little frightening. I guess I haven’t  thought about it before–really thought about it–that now that people own my book, they will be reading it. That means they’ll know all about Xavier and Zenia–my children, practically. And I’m still not completely sure how I feel about that. You’re probably thinking–‘But that’s what you wanted, right? People to read your book?’ And yes, I suppose that’s what happens when one publishes a book. People read it. *shivers*
But I guess what some people don’t understand is that this book has become very personal to me. I crafted the characters, the scenes, and the story in general, to sort out different things in my own life. Maybe that sounds weird to you–especially since Mark of the Corripian is based on a different planet with characters who possess superpowers–but that’s just how my mind works, I guess. All the characters have bits of me in them–my good qualities, my bad qualities, my fears, my struggles, and those things that I never let anyone else see. So I guess it’s a little frightening for people to read this book because it’s as if they’re reading my story. It’s the story of how I feel on a daily basis, my thoughts on other human beings, and also the person that I want to be. Of course, if you read Mark of the Corripian, you will be very confused, wondering how in the world it is about all that because the story really has nothing to do with those things. But it does. Every chapter, every scene–I could tell you exactly why I wrote it and what it means specifically to me. Even the little parts of the book that might seem pointless or unnecessary–they mean something to me.
I can tell you specifically one part of the story that holds the most meaning for me: Xavier Patrocinor. Yeah, he’s the super awesome male protagonist with a bad attitude and pretty eyes, but he’s so much more for me. I created him–a character with a chillingly brutal past in which he was responsible for bringing harm to multiple people–because I wanted to know–I needed to know–that someone who had made so many mistakes, someone who had strayed so far from the person he wanted to be, could still turn his life around. This was important to me in both a moral manner and a spiritual one. Growing up, I’d always been very critical of people, picking out all their mistakes and imperfections. Looking back, I guess this was my way of feeling better about myself–no matter what I did, at least I wasn’t bad as those people. This viewpoint shaped me into a very judgmental–even bitter–person. I could no longer see the good in people, only the bad. Anything a person did, even if it was an act of kindness, I would try to figure out the meaning behind it. Certainly the person had a hidden agenda. No one is kind just to be kind.
It wasn’t after I began writing this story that I began to change my viewpoint. If you’ve read my earlier posts, you know that the story started off strictly in Zenia’s POV, and Xavier was simply a supporting character. It was after I made him a main character, after I began to formulate his past, after I began to really get to know him as a character–no, as a human being(because that is what he is to me)–that I started to see the world differently. Xavier is a part of me that I am not proud of–untrusting and judgmental. He is also a part of all those people that I would look down on a few years ago–people who have made mistakes they regret (and, of course, this is a part of me, too). And Zenia is in many ways the person I want to be. She is forgiving, trusting, and gentle. She doesn’t see people’s pasts; she sees them for who they have become, and she sees their potential.
I’m certain that when some people read my book, they are going to be disappointed that Zenia is not your typical “strong heroine” who holds her own and never needs anyone else’s help–especially not the help of a male. I did not create that kind of heroine for many reasons, but specifically because I wanted to consider what an innocent, gentle, and loving young woman would do when everything she knew was taken from her and she was thrown into a war. What would happen if she was chosen to lead a cause she didn’t believe in? Could she do it, could she go against her belief in peace and in the thought that all humanity is innately good? Could she hurt another person–could she kill in the name of peace? These are all questions I want to answer in the Corripian Chronicles. These are questions I need to answer.
So, all in all, I guess my reason for writing is figuring out the answers to all the questions in life that I can’t just ask any one person. Xavier and Zenia have given me hope on many days; they’ve shown me that everyone should be given a chance. They’ve encouraged me to strive to be a better friend, a better Christian, a better person. They’ve showed me that I can’t just believe in something–I need to have conviction in my beliefs, and I need to act on them.
Two fictional characters have taught me more than I ever thought was possible. I understand that this book will probably not mean as much to those who read it as it does to me, but I hope that in some small way this book helps you to see people in a new light, or at least gives you a few pages of entertainment. I thank all of those who invest in Mark of the Corripian, and I give you a virtual hug for being awesome. (:

Have a delightful Christmas, and be sure to see the good in someone this week (and forever after)!

Farwell to all,

B.H. Parker

“You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge another, you are condemning yourself, because you who pass judgment do the same things.” -Romans 2:1

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